contradiction

I know that this post is supposed to be the post about his birthday, as promised.

But I really do not have the mood to blog about it now. I'm feeling really very very low.

Quarrel over trivial matter.

I do not know the reason of your distantness towards me.

You said you needed sometime to be alone.

Fine.

I can no longer cry, and yet I still could feel the ache in my heart.

The pain is very true.

I fear losing you, yet I know I can live off better without you.

I fear, very fear.

You knew that by throwing me into coldness, would hurt me, and yet you still chose to do so.

You knew that I needed a reason towards your behaviour, but you refused to answer me.

How much I yearn for a sense of security

I can lose you but I cant lose you.

For fear that I might miss out the love of my life.