GOD DAMNIT-- an angry man is a hungry man

I'M FIRED! AHHHHHHH ROARRRRRR

i didnt turn up for work on tue and thus i got fired=( it was my fault i admit='(

pls pardon me for all the complaining and maybe whinning and i also do know that i havent blog for a long time, but believe me, I REALLY DO NOT HAVE THE MOOD TO BLOG ABOUT THE PAST, RIGHT NOW AT THIS MOMENT, full stop.

After all these shit that happened, I only feel like concentrating on Elaine's and my online business stuffs, get ready the blog and accounts and start earning big money. But it is of great hardwork. YOU KNOW IT, starting a online business, or another kind of business is not as easy as shitting.


I am not sad over the fired-matter but the main problem is, being an idealist, i always thought that i have abilities, you know, working abilities? BUT I WAS PROVEN WRONG! u know, how sad can it be? it's like, u always thought that you are good in working or etc(i'm not saying that i'm good but i'm just giving an example), but after a long time thinking that you are good, you are capable, and u suddenly got fired=(

Alright, fine, i admit, i'm just being too overly confident of myself, which is a very bad thing. it landed me in this state.
it's like a waking up from a dream. Because whatever you thought are actually not what they are. In other words, its assuming. AND, assumption is the mother of failure.

So, it actually made me realised that there's something very wrong with my attitude, because this is not the first time already. Most said that because i do not have a family to support and i'm not working for a living, thus i tend not to take work seriously. Which i agree=(

Thus now, i will first have to get my attitude for my studies corrected first, because school is more important than work at this particular period! i mean, it's MY future, i cannot afford to put it at stake esp the fact that i din do well for my overall year 1, so so so, i will have to work extra harder for my future years. Besides, i'm already not working part-times, means i can concentrate more without being so tired after work and at the same time it also means less money for me.

I do not know why I felt like my income's being totaly cut off from me, when i still get my pocket-money and dear would also provide for me=( i just dunno why, or maybe i'm worried that dear and i will break-up and in the end, i can only survive on my pathetic pocket money which at the same time also have to support my smoking expenses? BUT BUT BUT i have already decided to cut down on my spendings and try not to get him transfer me money all the time, COS I DOWAN HIM TO DIE OF HUNGER and also i do not want to add on to his burden at this particular point of time. I knew he's alreadyfacing lots of stress from his work, so i'll just be silently supporting him from the behind. Besides, i've got my online-business with Elaine (although money wont just come rolling in without hard work) to depend on and I also havent got much things to buy. I wont die without a Gucci or LV bag, life still goes on. I have money to eat and drink and at most, smoke lesser!

Elaine told me to look this matter from another aspect, which this might happen to make me move on, and maybe i'll succeed in the online business! I know she's trying to persuade me to help her with it but she does make a point. I HAVE pocket-money, i'm not lacking of money, i do not have a family to feed. Since its a zero-capital business why not? if it fails i'll only be wasting my time, of which, i've lots of time right now! So i really think that she put in a valid point which i decided to help her and be lady bosses tgt!


indeed, an angry man is a hungry man, i know its 'a hungry man is an angry man' but i think the first one works better for me. I only had a meal yesterday and i did not consume any form of food in the next 30 hours. my weight dropped from 52 to 50.5kg=) Sadly, i started binging. A heavy-loaded dinner till i could eventually see my stomach coming out of nothing, cookies, cheesecakes and i dunno what it would be later when i finish this post. in fact when i just woke up (btw, i slept for the whole of today), i already felt like binging by going to steamboat buffet but i realised that i would most probably be very very full after the first plate of food and then waste my money. Thus, an angry man is a hungry man =(

I guess of this holiday, i'll just have to rot at home, and i'm afraid that i'll put on weight again like before because i'll have nothing to do but to eat and sleep.

SO, people, ask me out! but i have to indicate, i'm saving money, or in other words, i'm trying to use less or NO money.

sleepless

it's 6.22am and i'm not sleeping yet!!!

programmes lining ahead:

-visiting temple at 9, then for some delicious hongkong dim sums=X
-meeting kelly for lunch at novena n.h
-shopping
-jay's latest movie premier at suntec! and might get to see him in person=)
-go home sleepzzz

and since i'm going out at 9 and its already this time in the morning, i might as well dun sleep!

Goodbye

I'm gonna kiss YEAR ONE GOODBYE.

i missed 4days of school during the last week. I'm practically having the holiday moods right now! HAHS

from now on, i'm going miss the handicap sessions. but nvm, we still can meet up at the carpark in the future, alright Ashley and Q?

UPDATE: new year spending has gone up to S$700 EXCLUDING facial treatments and medicure sessions=(